Past Lives, Present Ties: A Wolf in Sheep's Clothes

In the intricate tapestry of life, we often find ourselves entangled in relationships that defy explanation. These connections, seemingly random, may carry the echoes of past lives, reverberating into our present and influencing our interactions. Today, I want to share a personal story that explores the dynamics of such a relationship, one that began with an instant connection and evolved into something inexplicably profound.

The Beginning of a Unique Friendship

I met Amy (name has been changed to protect Privacy) in 2012. We were fast friends, moving in together within six months. Our bond was immediate and intense; we had boys the same age, four years old, and our lives seemed to align perfectly. I never questioned the rapid development of our friendship. More than anything, I felt grateful for her presence in my life. Our plan was simple yet effective—living together as single parents meant one of us could always be home while the other went out, balancing our adult lives seamlessly.

Our living arrangement had many benefits. Amy was a night owl, while I was an early riser. This meant our laundry cycles were perfectly synchronized—she’d flip the laundry before bed, and I’d get up in time to continue without any downtime. An acquaintance once referred to us as "emotional lesbians," implying a deep emotional bond without sexual interest. Amy fulfilled an emotional need for me, making our living situation feel almost "perfect"—until it wasn't.

The Shift

Around six to nine months into our cohabitation, our relationship started to change. Although I can't pinpoint exactly what caused the shift, I believe it began when Amy started a relationship with a man who began spending time at our house. Unconsciously, I might have felt replaced, leading to a growing tension between us.

Things deteriorated quickly, and within the year of leaving together, Amy moved out. During this period of conflict, I found myself grappling with emotions that didn't make sense. While I cared for Amy as a friend, my feelings seemed to run much deeper. There was an inexplicable mix of trust and distrust, and an intensity in our emotions that didn't align with the actual events.

After Amy moved out, came a period of deep soul searching and reflection. I found myself navigating the quiet spaces of our shared home, each corner echoing memories that weighed heavily on my heart. The routine we had established was suddenly disrupted, leaving me with an emptiness that was both familiar and jarring. I spent countless evenings alone, replaying moments in my mind—notes she left in the kitchen for me, weekend binge watching tv, and the comfort of shared silence. Gradually, I realised that the roots of our emotional bond ran deeper than friendship; I had invested my hopes and vulnerabilities in a connection that now felt irrevocably altered. This introspection prompted me to explore my own desires and limitations, questioning what I truly sought in relationships and why the loss felt so profound. Each day became a step toward understanding my own heart, signalling the start of a journey that would redefine my understanding of love and companionship.

Exploring Past Life Connections

I remember asking Amy if our inexplicable emotions could be related to past lives. Despite our mutual care, there was an underlying fear and distrust that didn’t fit our current life circumstances. We decided to explore this possibility and discovered through a healer that we had shared a minimum of seven past lives together. These revelations helped us understand the depth of our connection.

In our exploration, we discovered a constant flip-flopping of power dynamics—intermittently shifting between "power over" and "power under" roles across our past lives. Amy, in particular, seemed to carry a significant history of experiencing life in the "power under" position. This pattern manifested in our current interactions as a visceral cellular memory, triggering responses that resonated deeply with her whenever I found myself in an authority role. It was as if the echoes of our past had woven an intricate tapestry of learned behaviours and reactions, compelling us to rethink how power influenced our connection. This insight not only provided clarity but also encouraged us to consciously break free from these inherited patterns, fostering a healthier and more equitable dynamic in our relationship moving forward. With some healing focused on three of those past lives, we managed to move forward as friends, albeit with boundaries.

Rooted in a more conscious understanding of our past lives, our friendship did slow down for 18 months before it fully continued. I learned to acknowledge when things felt different and made a concerted effort to give her grace and space. During this downtime, I had months to heal, to grieve, and to accept my position as "power over" in those past lives, reflecting on what didn’t work within that dynamic. This period of introspection allowed me to recognize the patterns that had shaped my interactions, opening the door to a deeper sense of empathy and compassion for both Amy and myself. Ultimately, the time apart served as a crucial catalyst for my personal growth, enabling us to reconnect with a renewed perspective and commitment to nurturing a healthier friendship.

Relationship inside of The Company

Just over a year ago, Amy and I re-engaged in a power over, power under situation with Personal Best Seminars. Despite my efforts to approach our interactions with awareness and intention, both Amy and I still find ourselves struggling to fully listen and comprehend each other’s perspectives. From an outsider looking in, there is confusion as to why are we dancing in this way. Buttons that should not be pushed in situations, are being pushed. This ongoing challenge indicates that there are unresolved issues between us that need to be addressed. Recognizing this gap, we are committed to uncovering and clarifying these misunderstandings, which is essential for fostering a more open and effective dialogue as we continue to navigate our friendship.

From the words of Neal Donald Walsh "We've been All of it, you and I. We've been the Up and the Down of it, and the Left and the Right of it. We've been the Here and the There of it, and the Now and the Then of it. We've been the Big and the Small of it, the Male and the Female of it and the Good and the Bad of it. We've been the All of it."

"And we've done it by agreement, so that each of us might experience ourselves as the grandest part of God. For we have understood that...

'In the absence of that which You Are Not, that which you Are, is Not'.

'In the absence of cold you cannot be warm, in the absence of sad you cannot be happy. Without a thing called evil, the experience you call good cannot exist'." ~Little Soul and The Sun

Recently, I had a vision of Amy: she is a wolf in sheep's clothing. This revelation shocked me and left me questioning its deeper significance. After discussing the vision with a trusted psychic medium, she reflected on how Amy, represented as the sheep, holds a mirror up to me, revealing the wolf within me. My curiosity deepened and I looked up the meaning of a wolf. The spiritual meaning, "The wolf is often seen as a spiritual guide, a companion on our personal journey of self-discovery and our place in the world". Traditionally, many cultures regard the wolf as a powerful guiding force, embodying qualities that resonate deeply with me at this moment. This vision serves as an affirmation of who I am and the path I am currently navigating.

Just as Neal Donald Walsh describes that in the absence of cold, I could not be warm, in the absence of Amy, I could not see who I am and the path I'm navigating. Amy's presence in my life served as a catalyst for self-reflection and growth; without her contrast, I might have remained blind to my own potential and the lessons waiting to be uncovered. Through our interactions, I have gained insights into my strengths and vulnerabilities, allowing me to embrace the complexities of my identity and the journey ahead. The dichotomy she represents not only guides me to acknowledge my inner wolf but also encourages me to navigate the unfolding story of my life with courage and authenticity.

The Present Dynamics

Currently, Amy is also in a process of managing, healing, and expressing emotions from many past lives, not just those involving her and I. Guided by a psychic medium, it's clear that this introspective journey requires her full focus. Consequently, she has responsibly stepped back from all responsibilities and obligations with our mutual endeavor, Personal Best Seminars.

During these past few months, as Amy and I navigated our relationship, we've experienced ourselves in ways that felt different from our true selves. We are in a process of remembering who each other is. In Neal Donald Walsch's words, "In the moment that I strike you and smite you...remember Who I Really Am." This resonates deeply with our current situation. Back in 2012, I remembered who Amy was. Now, it appears to be her turn to remember who I am.

Amy has all the space and time she needs for her healing. She has my full patience and grace. When she discovers her purpose for this life, whether it involves returning to our company or embarking on a new adventure, I will stand behind her. Perhaps, through this darkness, she will find her light.

Recognizing Past Life Connections in Your Relationships

If you have relationships that don't seem to make sense, they might be influenced by past lives. Here are some signs that I've noticed in my relationship with Amy:

1. Instant Connection: From the moment we met, there was a bond that felt lifetimes old. You might feel this instant bond with someone you've just met or an inexplicable repulsion.

2. Push-Pull Dynamics: In our relationship, there has often been a deep desire to engage in activities together, to learn from one another and share experiences. However, once we find ourselves in the position to actually do these things, there is a sudden reluctance; it’s as if we want to exert our individuality and approach everything on our own terms. This dynamic can create confusion and tension, as we navigate between wanting connection and feeling the need for independence. It’s a dance of intimacy and personal space, revealing how our past life connections influence our current interactions and choices.

3. Déjà Vu: Frequent feelings of déjà vu can indicate past life connections.

4. Feeling Drained: You may experience feelings of exhaustion or emotional drain following a comment or action that seems completely irrelevant or unexplained. This sense of depletion could stem from unresolved past life emotions that resurface during interactions, even when they appear trivial on the surface. Such responses may leave you questioning the intensity of your feelings, as if the weight of a shared history is resurfacing. Recognising this pattern can be an important step in understanding your connection with the other person and addressing the underlying issues at play.

5. Feeling at Home: One of the most profound signs of a deep past life connection is the sense of feeling at home with one another. It's that indescribable sensation of comfort and safety, where you don’t need to put on any façade or perform a specific role. In each other’s presence, there's a recognition that allows for pure authenticity, where simply being is more than enough. This feeling transcends external circumstances and provides a rare space where both individuals can reconnect with their true selves, fostering a deeper understanding and acceptance of one another.

6. Rollercoaster of Emotions: Navigating through a deep past life connection often feels like a rollercoaster, a tumultuous ride where conflicting emotions intertwine. It’s a battle between what we believe we "should" or "could" feel and the overwhelming confusion about what is actually happening within us. This lack of understanding can spark anxiety, leaving us questioning our true experiences. The reality is that both sets of feelings are valid; emotions from previous lives can surface alongside those rooted in our current circumstances. This blend of past and present emotions creates a complex landscape, making it both confusing and heart-wrenching as we seek clarity and comprehension amidst the chaos of our feelings. Recognizing and honouring this duality can be the first step towards finding balance and peace within our emotional journey.

There is far more to the universe than we can define. Some may disagree with my assessment of my relationship with Amy, but this is my truth. Our bond is unique and special, requiring a unique and special solution. If you recognize these characteristics in your relationships, consider the possibility of past life connections. Perhaps these souls are begging you to remember who they are so you can both remember who you are.

Amy has my unwavering commitment to continue walking alongside her through this darkness, to remember with great effort who she truly is. I promise to be the light in her current shadows, ensuring that my candle will shine brightly, guiding her as she navigates her way back to herself and our shared soul connection. Whatever soul agreement we are meant to honour and fulfil in this lifetime, even if it is simply to heal from our past lives so we can release any lingering burdens cleanly, I will remain dedicated to seeing this journey through with her. Together, we will explore the depths of our connection, finding strength and resilience in the process of remembrance and healing.

At the end of the day, it's about remembrance and healing. Who is the soul connected to you that you are being called to remember?